Today is a rough day...my body hurts - but I don't really feel it.

I hurt her.  Its unforgivable.  Did I do it intentionally?  No.  But nonetheless - I let her down.  In my mind - that's a big deal.  I can feel the dissappointment.  It was a little thing - but still. 

Anyway - I'm going to go - try to get some rest I think. Very long day ahead.  Hopefully I'll be able to talk with her.  I've told her everything around it - and I think she understands.  But still.   Doesn't change the fact that I hurt her.

So - Angel.  I'm sorry. 

So - what do you do?  I mean - how do you handle it when you're so connected to someone - I mean - just completely tied to their heart and feelings...and just know that now isn't your time to realize all those amazing feelings?

I've still got the dream - and its one that will live as long as I draw breath.  Have a good day everyone.

and - well - let's face it - nothing too interesting happened.  Spent all day Saturday with my kids - which was AWESOME....then sat and watched it rain all day sunday.  Ya - the draft was on - and i checked on the Race here and there.  But other than that - just sat back and let my mind wander.....

I just kept picturing her - in a beautiful dress....sun and wind playing with her hair - a slight glint off her sunglasses as she looked over the ocean.  Her toes dig into the sand as she stares out over the crashing waves.  Its almost as she's alone here - just with her thoughts.  All I can do is sit back and watch her - a smile crosses my face.  At almost the same time - a smirk graces hers as well.  She knows I'm there - just watching.....

I quietly walk up behind her - wrap my arms around her waist and kiss her on the cheek.  The smirk becomes a smile.  Without a word - she turns - takes my hand and we begin to walk down the beach. 

We don't say a word - almost like talking would ruin the moment.  Looks are exchanged - but very little more.  We're both smiling - enjoying the moment.We walk for a bit.  find a nice quiet spot and sit in the sand - staring over the waves - watching the sunset.

As the evening begins to cool - we start our walk back.  This has been a good evening.  A very good evening.  Unbeatable scenery, unbeatable company....I can only hope following nights are this wonderful

And not alot going on.  Just kicking back - flipping between the NFL draft and the Race.  Too bad both are pretty boring at this point.   I should probably get off my butt and go do something - but I do have to get all this laundry done.

So - I'll just kick back - see what's on - and probably let my mind wander (which - if you read my previous posts - is one of my favorate past times).  Ya know - one of these days I'll just have to see about stopping the daydreaming and getting her over here - I kinda think that enjoying her company will be TONS better than daydreaming about her.

Face it - she's beautiful (there's many reasons I call her my Angel - that's just one of them).  The fact that she's got a great heart is another.  Oh well - guess i better jump and get a few things done here.  Enjoy your afternoon everyone!

I really can't wait for this week to be over.  Granted - it will be soon - a couple hours.  But still.
Then again - not really looking forward to next week either.  I've to travel for work - and I'll get to see the opportunity to see some family (which is good) - but I'll be without her.  Without her for almost a full week.  Man does that suck.

Oh well - I'm full of thoughts and emotions right now - but for some reason - they just want to hang out in my head.  If I can get them out later - I will.

Good morning - and have a good day all.