Well, I've finally got my eBay account going. It's taken me forever because of all of the stuff going on with my bank account. Talk about annoying. I can't wait to finally be done with school in June. It's going to be so exciting! I can't wait to be able to finally start my life and be happy. It'll be great. I can finally marry Brandon. Get my Journalism degree. And live happily. I'm probably a loser for even bothering with blogging on here, but I don't care. Everyone needs a way of getting all of their mixed feelings out and it's been a while since I've journaled. I have my old journal but writing my thoughts just hurts my hand. I'm really stressed out right now because I've made promises that I don't know if I can keep. They aren't that big of a deal, but I just don't want to lie. I want to be able to keep my word, you know? Why do I act like I'm talking to someone in this blog when no one is going to read it. And if you do read it, I'm sorry for my rambling. I tend to ramble quite a bit. I think I may keep a steady blog on here since I do need a place to express my feelings. My boyfriend's sister is one of the only people I can talk to, but I kind of feel weird about it because she's older than me and she might be uninterested in what I'd have to say about my problems. I know I'm just a teenager and I don't have adult-like problems because I live with my dad but that's just it! I live with my dad and he just drains the happiness I have out of me. Anytime I feel that life is great, he throws something in my face about not being able to be a good mom or wife or anything I'd love to be. My main passion besides my boyfriend (the sweetest, most loving, cutest man in the world) is photography. I love to take pictures. I think its so much fun, but if I even try to say anything to my dad he just cuts me off normally. I'm also really stressed out about prom and about gradution. All of my graduation supplies costs around $400 and I just don't have that kind of money. My dad doesn't usually act like he's going to help. I don't know. Maybe, hopefully he will. The other day I found the perfect prom dress. Its $350 though. The thing is is that I need something modest and cute. I need to be modest because I respect myself and because of my religion. Church of Christ is my religion. I wear skirts, that's right. But I don't wear floor length drabby, dull skirts (I'm not saying that long skirts are bad. They aren't  I wear them too. I'm just more lenient, I guess.) I wear kinds like I make and sell. I love to shop for pants and then cut them up and make a cute skirt. I think its fun even though its a lot of hard work. My sewing machine isn't the best. I mean its not terrible but its not great. I wish I could buy one of those computer ones that will do certain stitches for you. I think that's pretty neat! Tonight I'm making the senior football players a cake and chocolate covered pretzels. They love them both. Especially the pretzels. Speaking of pretzels, I cannot wait to go to the coast after (or during) Thanksgiving. I'm so excited because I think my boyfriend might ask me the question. Thankfully he doesn't have to buy a ring (we don't beleive in it) and we can save for our house. Just because I don't beleive in something, though, doesn't mean I'm going to look down on people that do it. I'll still talk to them and be friends with them. It doesn't make them terrible, terrible people. It's just something I don't do. I'll talk to anyone and everyone. I'm a real people person, or I try to be. I think I may have typed enough. I'll save some thoughts for tomorrow, maybe. Happy Blogging.