Archive - July 2008 Welcome to 12 dogs and a blogPosted Jul-31-08 13:08:12 PDT Updated Jul-31-08 23:17:03 PDT Welcome to 12 dogs and a blog. This blog is a writer's journal. Fact and fiction reside here. If you wonder or worry if something you read on this blog is true? Ask. If you're new here? The words in blue are hyperlinks. In some parts of the blog there are interactive stories. The blue links can change the story or add to it. The whole point of this blog is to watch someone write real time. As I write and edit you get to see the process. The next link Hey is really sad. I'd skip it if you want a happy. It's not. Thanks, AuthorAnn Or if you're wondering why I've stopped writing?
HeyPosted Jul-31-08 11:39:32 PDT Updated Aug-01-08 07:53:58 PDT I was only going to be here for a minute or two. I was only going to say, "Hello!" But then Monday night something happened that took my breath away. It happened on a late night talk show. A fella in the middle of the night. Some fella who says he's at the end of his path. A highschool drop out, ex punk rocker, member of AA looked right into my heart and recited Richard. He did it right. I wondered why that man was shelpping "joke burgers" in the middle of the night. I wondered why he stopped making movies. I wondered what he would do if someone said to him," You have my attention. Now what are you going to do about it? "I wanted to ask him, "If you could do your show like you want? What would you do? "I'd love to see.Oh and about the kitty segment. If you aren't going to use it to learn something about your Jungian self then stop. You missed a good opportunity in order to make fun of someone. Kind of a waste. As for me, one viewer out of many, unless you were going to look in that camera and say my name? I've learned all I needed to learn from this segment of the show.As for my real life?Lots of folks in my real life who've made it their life's goal to make me feel like the punchline to a joke. Or maybe "the joke". Luckily my son is okay and spared. He's beautiful inside and out. I have my pups. I love my son and my pups. My son and my pups love me and it's not just because I feed them either. They are genuinely glad to see me. For free.But if you think I'm going to sit here and say how great my life is? After Billy, my Great Aunt, and my son's deaths and IrishDavid's leaving?You're full of it.After years of being told that I'm worthless, I don't see the point of wasting anyone's time. You folks who don't like me have made your point.No one wants me. Right.Thanks for sharing.Comments are OFF and I'm not checking emails.Not that anyone really gives a fig but hey I'm nice,"Hey folks in California..."
Playlist.Arms of an Angel Sarah Mclachlan My dad once told me that the only place I'd find home would be in the arms of the angels. Told me to listen to this song. Good thing I'm not suicidal or I'd have just given up the ghost when he told me that. He didn't mean it mean. He's just a pragmatic's pragmatic. He knew I was hoping for someone kind. Someone to love me. He also felt I'd be lucky if anyone would want me at all. It was his way of saying, " Daughter, be realistic and look at yourself. " I mean, I do look in the mirror. I know I'm ugly. All that beautiful on the inside stuff? Please. Someone send me flowers? To care? Hahahahahahahahah. Now THAT is a joke! He always thought I was too kind hearted for this world anyway. Still it's kind of hard to look at the reality. No one wants me.
I've always been able to find some bright spot in things. I've always been able to keep my feet up underneath but I'm kind of having a tough time here. How do you get to the place where you know no one wants you? The last time I saw my dad he said I'd be okay. I hope so. Just need some time? Meebee. Writing is the only thing I've been able to do where no on cares what I look like. It really is all about my imagination. I can fly here in my words and ideas. Here in my words? I'm fierce.
writer's note: Not that I should have to explain, but here on the internet folk assume, get upset, and then don't ask to make sure there's no missunderstanding. The above story, the one about the song, is about my dad and me. He told me about the song. This isn't about anyone else here in Blogland or on the internet. Not everything is about you Gentle Reader. Just so you'll know.
Hey folks in CaliforniaPosted Jul-29-08 12:20:54 PDT Updated Jul-31-08 13:14:01 PDT Glad that you're okay. Take care and mind the aftershocks. Let folks here in Blogland know if you're alright. Will peep in tonight and see how it's going.AnnOther than thatHello I must be going...Comments On but in hidden mode.
Hello I must be going...Posted Jul-29-08 12:01:17 PDT Updated Jul-29-08 12:07:24 PDT I'm maybe going to be off the blogs for a couple of days. Give it and writing on this blog a rest. If you look back in the archives I've written alot since I've been here. The brain needs a break. I have some things that I want to do this next year. Need to go sit on the side of the road and really listen to what's going on in my head. Listen to what is important to me. I'll still be writing. I made that promise to write daily so I will. I'm serious about writing. Want to make a living at it. Or at the very least make enough to support my dog family. There are a few other things to be worked out too. It's time to make the decisions on what activities that I continue to do and which I leave out for a while. I will still write though as I look forward to it as much as I love my family, my dogs and walking. I'll hope fully get to check the emails daily. I'll certainly answer all emails as quick as possible. I'm not sure how long this will take. I could post tonight and it could be a week before I post again. Until then, I will miss you folks. Best regard, Author Ann Note: Cali ebayers. I hope everyone is okay. "I feel the earth move under my feet..." should remain a song lyric AND NOT really the earth moving under your feet. Take care.
As for 12 dogs? Say awwwwwww...Posted Jul-29-08 03:01:42 PDT Best cure for a sore throat (when you can't drink the hot toddy). Believe it or not, one of the best "cures" for a sore throat are hard candies and lots of fluids. Hard candy like Life Savers or lemon drops disolved in the mouth will coat the irritated throat. Soothing it somewhat. The water is to hydrate the the throat. A simple solution but it works. Also helpful, chicken broth or noodle soup, warm water salt gargles, naps (they give the body time to heal as well as help the time pass), and finally a hug or joke.Laughter helps to strengthen the immune system not to mention keep yer mind off yer troubles.Hugs to you if you wake this morning with a sore throat.AnnThe Mystery of the Xfiles movie is...The Mystery of the Xfiles movie is...Posted Jul-28-08 18:41:43 PDT Updated Jul-29-08 11:43:23 PDT
Review of The X files I Want to Believe. Let me put it this way. I went to this movie with a major X files fan. This is a person who rented and watched EVERY SEASON of the X files. He could cite not just the season something happened but episode and plot. And guess what. About 3/4th of the way through this movie he turned to me and said, "Do you mind if we leave now?" I was delighted. The only mystery that we saw in this movie is why they had Agents Scully and Mulder stuck in the plot of a Saw movie and HOW in the heck did they get these actors to do this movie? Don't go. I would tell folks to go see Mamma Mia for the camp and the possiblility of a cult classic. Heck, just the music in Mamma Mia was fun or funny or cheesy goodness. The X files movie was just stupid. It didn't do anything well. Do yourself a favor. Skip this movie and rent the television series or maybe even the last movie. At least the last movie had aliens. Skip it. It's a dog.
12 dogs Woof. You'll have more fun in The insecurity box.
The insecurity box.Posted Jul-27-08 12:17:56 PDT Updated Jul-29-08 11:41:49 PDT Rough draft. The insecurity box You know how to banish an insecurity. Turn on a light. Actually list them. During the day with a small pen and pad of paper. List them out big and small. Then put each insecurity on an index card and file them in an insecurity box. No kidding. Ironcally file the small ones first. You can get rid of them easily and it gives courage. Then take out a card and during the day see all the times this comes up and why. Note them on the card. Many of the small can be traced back to specific missunderstandings. It's a conditioned response so you have to recondition yourself. Since many triggers can be unconsciouse you first have to make it known thus the importance of making a note as the specific feeling(s) arise. The larger insecurities to more complex occurances in the past or they are a series of smaller insecurities that get jumbled up into one big insecurity. Save those for last maybe solving the smaller ones will also make the bigger ones less complex. Did I tell ya I went to see my folks? Well I'm back. But it's only in your imagination.
I'm back. But it's only in your imagination.Posted Jul-26-08 11:17:26 PDT Hey ya. Going to see my parents. Gonna' load up on the worlds best peaches, try hard not to fight with my mama, and see if I can get the first homegrown tomato sandwich of the year from my da'. What did I learn last night? Hmmm. I love to chat with Talooooolah. I'm going to loooovee chatting with NJ. I also got to laugh. Last night I was in quite a bit of pain. Thanks to a funny, funny person I got to forget the pain and enjoy the laugh. I think he must have that affect on alot of folks. I'd hug his neck but he'd probably think I was some kind of stalker weirdo or something. So I won't. Thing is, I believe that someone, somewhere up in heaven is taking notes. Somewhere up in heaven angels are smiling. They are saying, "Who knew that he could be so kind?" They are forgetting the past and looking at the now and future. Me? I'm just finally getting a good nights sleep and laughing. Oh, and you know what the trouble is. They're hiring those Harvard types. That's okay. But what you're in need of is someone from the RedNeck Nation as a writer too. Then you'd have some funny to go with all that urbane and witty. You know I like a fine whine as much as anyone, but a longneck and a Redneck on the beach is alot more fun. Just sayin'. Take care. Taaaaaallllooooolllaaahhh, check yer mail. Ignore the first email as meddling and read the second one. NJ -- well heck. Now that I know you like chocolate milk and simulated auto racing on Sunday morning? My day is complete. Problem... I'm a tea drinker who'd rather spend their Sunday mornings having sex. Does that mean we have nothing in common? Check yer mail. I got questions for ya.. Well wish me luck. Going to see parents is always a crap shoot. Especially when there's the possibility of also seeing sibling. Yippie!!! I will be suitably dark and depressed next week. Lots to write about. Ann Next...talking about reality here.
Ehemm. SteveOoooPosted Jul-23-08 07:46:49 PDT Updated Jul-23-08 11:37:17 PDT Happy Birthday to Steve Ooooo. Hope you have a great day Steve O. Lots of hugs and prezzies. Lots of love. Best to you from all of us here at 12 dogs!!!!!!!!!
A pooemm for Steve O by Hannah M 23 July 08
Hap, hap, happy birthday ohhh Much love and happiness Steve O Today's not just humpday ooohhhh nnoooooo It's the birth day of Steeeevvvveeee ooooooo
Hope you have lots of birthday happy. Ann and all us real and not so real characters here at 12 dogs
Playlist? Barefoot Children Jimmy Buffet Glad to see ya' Steve. Many happy more.
Now gotta go. Take care. Alittle off the beaten path but..Hmmm anyone wanna' go Prayers for those in the sites of a huricaneLooks like stormy weather.Looks like stormy weather.Posted Jul-22-08 17:58:20 PDT Updated Jul-22-08 18:23:28 PDT Looks like stormy weather folks so I'm gonna give the computer a rest. Take care and good night to you. Sweet dreams. AuthorAnn
Oh one other thing. Solitude can be highly over rated too. Next...talking about reality here.
Next...talking about reality here.Posted Jul-22-08 14:03:52 PDT Updated Jul-22-08 17:25:02 PDT ...I'm an adult. I get reality checks all day long. I get plenty of reality checks. What I need is a soft shoulder and a kind word...
Dear Off the clock people, Have a great evening. Hope you have lots of soft shoulders and kind words this evening. The folks at 12 dogs. So.I was talking to Odysseus and he said...
Answer comment: Thanks, Yep If we could cash those reality checks we'd be rich. As for the soft shoulders. No problem. As long as someone's bringing the love? It's good.
Now I've added this next part. It's a letter to Auntie. This was added after the lovely comment from person above and isn't directed at him. He's a lovely person.
Now to the Dear Auntie Slacker letter.
Dear Auntie, Sigh. Day after day I sit here and write. I do it for me. If someone else reads it and they like it? I'm surprised and happy. Welcome. I really am glad you visited 12 dogs and stayed to read. I'm really surprised if anyone reads what I write. That's the truth. However sometimes I write something that bugs a person. Really. Did I say really? Because I really, really, really, really meant really. Really. But that's not my question really. Or is it really? Yeah I guess I do use the word really ALOT. Really. Lately I've been thinking about internet relationships. Not just the guy girl or girl girl or guy guy kind. But just how we relate to each other as people. I do that from time to time. And I got an email. I tweaked someones feelings. I'm sorry if I hurt someone's feelings. It seems that every time I TRY not to hurt their feelings bingo end up hurting their feelings. This is really upsetting. So I want to say I'm sorry for hurting their feelings even if I was TRYING not to hurt their feelings. What do I do Auntie? Dagnabit
Dear Dagnabit, Interesting name by the way. Auntie suggests naps and sex. That usually clears up everything. However if you are not able to or inclined to have sex? Take naps and cold showers. You'll feel refreshed. Luckily Auntie gets to have sex with her naps. Cold showers are over rated.
So best I can tell you? Take the nap and skip the shower. I hear that dream sex is perfectly okay.
Let me know how it goes. Auntie Slacker So.I was talking to Odysseus and he said...Posted Jul-22-08 12:31:54 PDT Updated Jul-22-08 18:19:19 PDT
I'm gonna coin the phrase "Robot Camera". Yeah, I know Craig Ferguson over on the Late Late Show was talking to "Robot Camera" but heck Eric the Red discovered the US and I don't hear folks calling our country the United States of Eric the Red. (Note from our local history buff ----Skralings or something like that actually are the reason why we don't call America the Newfoundland. The Skarlings. Now I don't know how to spell their name and I got stuff to do. But our history buff here thought taking the time to put this in the post was a grand idea. Anyway) So I'm sticking a "flag" in it. It's miiiiinnee. Proceed to ignore it into oblivion or use it to excess. But if you do? Yah. It's got my little explorer flag it in.
Robot Camera noun (could be proper or common depending on if you are talking about your own, specific person or the general population.) It's not a mean spirited term (before someone starts using it mean). It's a term for the image that you form of person who you are in a "relationship" with via electronic media. Could be over the internet. Could via a tee vee. But it's finally a term for that person that you consider friend but who you don't know their real name or address or you're not really sure if you even know what they look like. The image you see either through the computer screen or minds eye. Finally a term that deals with the phenomenon that happens here in the virtual world or in entertainment industry or any fandom where the image becomes a part of the viewers world. Used in a sentence. "I've been talking to this guy forever but all he is to me really is a "robot camera". I don't really know him. It's all good. A way to scratch an itch without the guilt. Calorie free ice cream." (Okay Gentle Reader? Listen up. I do not think of you as a "robot camera". Okay. Just so you know. But you have to admit that there are those relationships that arise from the strange realities of the internet or television/entertainment/writer's fandom that have blurred or in some cases full out stomped on the transitions one goes through to get to the point of calling someone friend. You know. The kind of friend who would tell someone their mustache is stupid and they should shave it off. I don't even have that relationship with WB lol JJB. And we've, well let's say we've been through alot in our relationship. We have to be pretty durn irritated to say, "You look stupid." to each other. Oh and while there are elements of the voyeurs and "spiders" here, the term when used as a common noun is much broader in scope. It also speakes to the true feeling of friendship one person can have for the other even if they've never laid eyes on them. Which is not something that occures that often in real world friendships. I do believe folks can be friends without actually meeting first. Thing is it's not just not lol real common. In order to be friends you usually see 'em too. It's how you come in contact with them in the first place.
But I'm sure YRMV (Your Relationships May Vary), this is JMHO (Just My Humble Opinion)
Well Guess you had to be there... Gotta go muck the pens. Ann Pssst Or So... What's next. Even I'm not sure about where this goes next. LOL. Guess you had to be there...Posted Jul-22-08 00:14:47 PDT Updated Jul-22-08 13:49:13 PDT Oh how lovely. I closed my eyes. The voices on the television gently melted together as my eyes gently openned then closed then opened and finally fluttered into sleep. It was if I were 10 years old again at my grandparents house. The adults sitting outside and talking. The kids lulled into sleep by the "music" of grown ups talking. Safe .Alas that also meant that I missed the other guest on the LLS and the musical guest and the What did we learn last night. What did I learn? That lovely surender to sleep. That when you are as tired as I was every thing sounds silly. That other than not having someone's lap to lay my head on it was bliss.
Now I'm going to feel that of the other "lovely things in this world". I'm going to go take a bath and then settle into the middle of clean sheets. Get some sleep. Hugs and good night, Author Ann
And then? I woke up. Put on my fluffy house coat and "did my dailies" Actually I was sitting there. Looking in the mirror. Half a sleep. When the thought occured, "I really should brush my hair next. Looking like Thing, with all this hair in my face it really isn't a good look." Then I had a next thought, "Mouth tastes funny. Oh and yay my tongues not numb. Better brush. Where the heck did the toothbrushes go? They were right there on the edge of the sink. Hmm" So I finished my uhmmm "thoughts" and brushed my hair and teeth. Then I put out and fed the inside dogs, fed the birds, finches and mixed breed terriers, in case you wondered, took care of life here in general and then thought- "You know self you are tired." (note. I meant that in the sleep deprived way not slang) So I took a nap. I know Saenz-- Decadent. Right there in the middle of the morning. But it was lovely. And I slept, but not before I let the inside dogs back inside. Then? I woke up. This time I felt a bit better. Dressed. Fixed and ate something resembling lunch. Got things sorted and fired up the computer. Wrote. Got stuff settled here on the otherside of the computer screen and now I'm a fixin to do the daily mucking out of the pens. Yesterday I read to the pups a chapter of Alice in Wonderland when I was finished. I'm reading it now for a writing something so I thought I'd practice reading out loud. Believe it or not they all settled down and listened. Honest. One or two fell asleep. Also honest. I did it because I couldn't give them individual time yesterday. We call that "lap time" no Gentle Reader, not lap dance time, lap time. Individual time with treats. Oh no, NOT TREATS, dog biscuits. Sheesh. I'm trying to read to them to see if I can do it on days when I don't have as much time for individual attention. After mucking out the pens? Well I'll read the next chapter of Alice and give out the doggie treats. Then? Well for sure I'm going to take a shower. Get pretty grubby when I muck the pens. Afterwards I'm not sure. I need to sort clothes. Do the house and family things. Make supper. Then watch the news and the LLS and go to sleep. As someone said. Gently. Happy Day and Happy Reading.
Oh and Moma Mia ! 12 dogs goes to the movies. A review. Answer to your comment. Here because my comments are On but hidden. I didn't want you to think I'd missed your comments. Yes, I'd love to email . Hey. Howze it going'
I'm sorry that I missed you. Twice. This isn't on purpose. I promise. Oh and I added something. It was just a thought after the post about the "robot camera" world.
This really is a very general summing up of the day. Or at least it's a summing up of a part of the day. It's still general..
I really did fall asleep and then wake up like that last night. It was nice. I didn't fight sleep, I welcomed it. I love when the word "contentment" comes into my day. But in the morning when I wake up... do do do do do... Lol Amazing what we fill our days with. LOL Got to go change the word "feed" to "fed" then actually go do it. Ann Moma Mia ! 12 dogs goes to the movies. A review.Posted Jul-21-08 06:05:20 PDT Updated Jul-21-08 06:33:19 PDT A review of the movie Moma Mia. by 12 dogs and a blog I was trying to tell a family member why I didn't want to be very critical of this movie and yet couldn't praise it either. For me, to be critical of this movie would be like kicking the family "dog". So many excellent actors. Toe tapping musical score. Exuberant mood. For something different? "Oh Honey!", Hannah Murphy Sunday brunch quotePosted Jul-20-08 12:34:19 PDT Updated Jul-21-08 02:51:25 PDT
"Oh Honey. It's not that I don't understand what you're sayin'. It's that I don't agree with it."
Hannah Murphy, 20 July, 2008.
(including another Hannah quote)
Go speedracer Go! Oh and here's Something to read while we're fishing.
Happy weekend, ya'llPosted Jul-19-08 11:23:55 PDT Updated Jul-21-08 02:52:44 PDT Another Hannah quote:
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A person or character whose behavior is predictable or superficial: | So word of the day."cliche" Used in a sentence? Gosh, that poster, over on the other side of the internet, just insulted her fellow forum member by saying her words were "cliche". That's not polite!
888888888888888888888888888888 Man I'm having a lovely day. Hey ya' Well it's been one interesting week out in the world. There was that tempest in a shaving mug for the LLSwCF fans. There was alll kinds of drama in the political world. Wonder what RedNeck Politico thinks about this. Muffbro sold his magic 8 pirate skull. I still have to finish that story. Did I remember to tell you that? I think I left that story at "...Kelley's cross roads.." Sorry. Will get it finished soon. If you want to kind of catch up you can:Go readSomething to read while we're fishing.or you can read the latest on WB and his brother Time for walkaboutor you can ponder
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