It's Never Too Late Don't Give Up on Your Dreams

I'm always dreaming of the future - where I want to be who I want to be.  I used to be told Oh, you’re only dreaming. But folks, dreaming has kept me alive!

I was an abused wife in 1974 and almost killed.

In 1989 – I almost lost my life due to a doctor’s screw up.  But I prayed and dreamed of what was to come.

In 1998 - I fell into a deep hole of hell.  I found my 5-year relation down the tubes - I found him in bed with a much younger woman, and my one and only son called and told me he was going into the army for 6 years.  I was torn down and felt so abandoned and alone.  I sunk really fast and started drinking and isolated myself in my little apartment in my stuffy recliner.  Just me the bottle and cig's.  I had already been in therapy and was having issues about my relationships.  After two weeks of nothing but drinking around the clock I starting thinking of suicide and almost was successful until I received intervention from above.  I saw my son's face in the reflection of the suicidal weapon, a broken mirror.  I suddenly called a friend who called my doctor who told me to go to the hospital where I spent 6 - 7 weeks.  There, I was diagnosed with bipolar which I'm still battling today.

About my dreams, while in rehab I started writing in my journal and just recently, I read these journals and read what I had written back in 1998. 

Dream #1 - get really good at photography and for people someone to purchase it.  Recently, I sold 4 prints of my popular B&W Soccer photo.

Dream #2 - I want to write.  I've had poems published, I write in blog’s, and now my only hope is for someone someday to want to write my story.

Dream #3 – I have created my own jewelry and have been successful in selling them.  One more hope is to find that one piece of jewelry that everyone wants and to one day sell my jewelry in a store.

Dream #4 - I opened a Ebay store the first of this year selling not only my jewelry but what I love to do - estate shopping and collecting.

Well here I am! My dream has almost materialized.  The only thing left is moving to North Carolina someday to be with my son and my new grandbaby. Just need more success.  And hope the research program that I previously got accepted in for dual bipolar will help me to survive even more.

Thanks for listening.