Hello There

My name is maryjane but here lately I like to be called maryjoe. And that name is actually an unfulfilled promise. Still my Joe's name is like an angel’s melody playing continuously within the very depths of me. It is a song between our souls of which could never be played upon the earth. I belong to him and that's a beautiful feeling. Joe is my soul mate of whom I have loved since a little girl of 14 we met in 1976 and God bounded us together in 1983. He was and still is so very beautiful in my eyes within more of the purest ways imaginable then the mere mind could ever dream of. He was hideously killed in 1999 but continues to live in my heart and soul. The very air I breathe and everything I do is all about him throughout my living existence.

Since my Joe's death I wear my memorial ring on a chain around my neck. Since right now -  I wear this recently purchased butterfly ring on my ring finger and this reminds me that - A caterpillar has to change into a butterfly before being set free in our society and accepted as a free spirit in our spiritual existence. I spent my early lifetime feeling ugly until I met my Joe and with him I felt so very beautiful mostly because he made me feel as though I was the most beautiful woman in the world and beyond there too. I use to be my Joe's butterfly and now he's mine ....and he's finally free too while waiting for me.....I'm weird; I know....but - remember – You are Beautiful

I am a very spiritual person and highly believe that God is in fact the very center core of our souls and one merely needs to reach down into the depths of their own inner beings...in order to find Him. He meets us half way. May the love of God carry you in His loving arms for an eternity of foreverness. Joe is the only man I have ever known and I was fortunate enough that a year ago God allowed Joe to take me spiritually up into a tiny little paradise in Heaven and I was showed this glimpse of what has been set aside for us. So I try to live as near right to God as possible so that I don't miss out on this grand existance. Joe waits for me and so I am waiting for him. And it's the most precious desire I have ever known much less evualate how it might feel. Words could not justify nor grasp the pure meaning or emotional feeling of what was shown to me and again; I am so very thankful.

I’m the kinda person who believes first in the beauty of all people everywhere and try my best to reserve myself as being non-opinionated in the things I don’t understand. Feel happy to send me an email at any time. I have dealt with many things in life and death. My sister was killed; my brother died a year later and I lost identical twin baby girls. Losing my Joe was the worst I could have ever felt yet; somehow beautiful too - because now - he's always with me and is in fact more alive now then he's ever been. 

Life itself seems to be merely a matter of trying to live life as good as one possibly can be; to all others - especially those less fortunate then ones own self and well being - and of being able to reach out and touch - that which is now - today - and also its more of a matter of purely passing through - closing our eyes here for eternal rest from our tired bodies and then opening them there with a glorious eternity within our spiritual body - and the Love of God - remember; God's all about Love in fact He is Love.

I believe too that it's important in life to not think very much but rather find someone to love very much. The mind remembers what the body avoids - and the body remembers what the mind evades - yet they're in complete harmony together. To harmonize with life instead of against it - is a beautiful thing to do - I have come to realize that all things have purpose; nothing is without meaning - even something as simple as a hello or a smile - could be the worldly difference in someone's life or rather existance. You may be nothing but one person in a world of many - but to one person - you could be their entire world - one never knows for sure of whom they may be reaching out to.

So considering that I’ve survived a lot of which this life has to offer I am still very thankful to God for the many things that still surround me such as the love and happiness from family. I have two wonderful grown sons that love me very much and one grrrandbaby who thinks of me as a child in her care - plus a daughter in law who just so happens to be my very best friend. I'm blessed in so many ways.

So it’s fair to say -- That even in a World of Darkness – Beauty still Creeps

Have a Beautiful Day

Joe ~ maryjoe ~ maryjane ~ the same