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Gray Days...

Posted Jan-06-07 22:50:46 PST Updated Jan-08-07 07:13:12 PST

As I sit here looking around my house and thinking how I am so lucky to really have most things I want but the only thing I do really want I cant have, like my dear old Grandfather dying in his bed as I'm writing this. He was in world war 2, he lived a life of elegance, title, respect and just overall love for his family hoping that one day we can all be normal..☺☺☺ Having hope in us to live the life we all wished and to also hope in what we can become. I sit here sadden that life is so hard to people that are in pain and just want to die, I also relise that when they die its us that are left running after the memories to try and bring them back to life and yet when they die do they really see us, do they really watch over us and is there no pain where they are? Its so hard to watch a person who was so healthy and full of life just want to die and just want to let go which he has. My dearest Granny whom I named my eBay store after (Nonni) was such a light in my life and had such venom to live, but as I turn back the pages in my head full of memories of her I remember how she had everything in place before she died and how even her underwear was washed and hanging up drying as like she just did it. She has such respect for herself and never wanted to be treated like a child changing their diapers which I did for her in her last days of life and I remember her saying to me "wash your hands". So my point is some people let go and some people hold on even if they are dying, my grandfather has let go and there is no hope to try and make him hold on as he has wanted to just be with her in heaven with his family and of course I understand that but what about us? What about me the little girl that would work with him in his work shop making heart shapes out of wood? The little girl that would sit on his lap as he sang french songs and the little girl that just loved him so?

I just wish the pain you feel when you know they are going to die and there is NOTHING in the world to change that can be just removed from my heart as I have lost 2 very important people already in my life and now I am going to loose my Grandfather/father because there is not cure for cancer.

I just want you all to know who ever reads this, dont take anything for granted as you really never know what tomorrow brings. Tell the people in your life that you love them and never hold back your feelings as you mite never be able to say what you feel again.

What a great start to a New Year!

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carlocreations2 ( 100

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I am so sorry.

I know the pain you feel. I have already lost mom and dad.

I will be 63 this month. According to nature, I don't have as long to live as I used to. My children will be saying goodbye to me in a few years.

But the hope that I have is that I will be in heaven.

I was so grieving about my mom. She was the last to go in 1991 when as if a still small voice inside me said.

Why are you grieving so?
She is happy. She is in the presence of Almighty God.

There is no better place to be.

So remember when he goes that he will be in the presence of Almighty God.
Just as David said about his son that died. I can't bring him back to me, but I can go to him.

Yes, we would like to have them stay forever with us, but that is not God's plan. Trust Him to comfort you.

Jan-06-07 23:06:48 PST Report this comment

shartey ( 2936

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I understand your sadness, and your pain, what a blessing that you have had the opportunity in life to love and share with two wonderful people. So few of us have that opportunity to have such special people in our lives. What a blessing you have been to both of them, to be there in the last days of thier lives.

This is a time to celebrate thier lives and look at the glory and happiness that they have brought into your world. They gave you the gift of love and respect for thier world. What a treasure that you have in their memories.

I know that this is a trying time, going through the death of someone that you love so dearly and the sorrow of knowing that they no longer want to live. Your grandfather would be the age of my father who died many years ago very suddenly. He was alone when he died. Unfortunately he did not have the wisdom to love and treasure family as your grandfather seems to have done. He had developed a life that left him alone, away from his children and a mate that would have been there for him.

You have so many blessings in the love of your grandfather and what a priviledge it is to have that great sharing between you. I know it is painful to realize he wants to die and has no desire to live. I have always believed that is God's way to lead those who are elderly and ready to move on. When thir bodies are failing and this life is impossible they have to have a way to move on. Keep the memories close to your heart and remember that you are one of the priviledge few in life that have had this opportunity to share with a wonderful man.

God bless,
nigel

Jan-06-07 23:15:45 PST Report this comment

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