It is Friday May 23, 08. I have been disabled to the point of not being able to work. Not only do I have Fibromyalgia, but add Panic Anxiety Disorder, Lumbar spine Disc Degeneration and Osteoarthrits of the Lumber Facet joints. I also have a multitude of other disorders that only contribute to pain, insomnia and a rough existence. But I try to be optomistic. I have to date this because I easily forget what day, month, year etc., we are in. I am in my 40's, married for the second time, but this time I got a wonderful sweet man who really takes care of me. My first marriage was 25 years of being with the wrong person. My two adult sons are the only thing I have to show for that relationship, and I would not change that. I do wish I had dumped him instead of being complacient and allowing him to dump me. He felt that I was just "sick" all the time and even though he didn't want to kick me while I was down, he was not longer in love with me. Really nice guy. He has been arrested on 4 felonies since then. I am in such a better place now, with a real man and I feel blessed. I am waiting for the outcome of submitting for Social Security Disablity. It began last October and I will hopefully get an answer in the next month. I cannot walk far, very unbalanced, cannot stand for more than 2 minutes, cannot sit more than one hour and can only sleep on my side. My neck is killing me this morning and so is my thoracic spine. I guess either my Fibromyalgia is in high gear again or I slept wrong. It is so hard to have Fibromyalgia when so many people don't believe that it is a real condition. Much of the time I have discussions with those who do not believe it is a real automimmune disorder or that I even hurt. Then I try to do what the doctor tells me, exercise slowly and I always seem to take 3 steps backwards and end up in more pain. It is so frustrating. I grew up in Maryland, just outside Washington D.C. in the suburbs. Went to Parochial school and graduated from an all girl high school. I love cats and have had 6 very special cats over the last 27 years, and 3 dogs. Two Alaskan Malamutes and now I have a Yorkshire Terrior. Wow is he a terror! Love him anyway and my cats. My sons were born in South Florida. We moved back to Maryland, then to Atlanta and finally to New Mexico. Wow what a state. I love it. It isn't perfect, but I still love it and think it is the most beautiful state I have every seen.